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Friday, November 14, 2008

Tarot - The Magician

So, I have been sick this week. I got a flu shot a few weeks ago, and now I am sick. It was not a live virus, but I just find it humorous that I get a flu shot for the first time ever and I think this is the earliest in the season I have been sick. I do think that my immune system is suffering from my lack of being able to sleep well because of my back pain.

I wake up constantly having to find a new position that hurts less. I would say a position that doesn't hurt, but I have not found one of those. It is just a matter of degrees of pain. I then eventually reach a point where I can't move into a position that I can actually sleep in and have to get up. Getting a new futon did not make getting out of bed any easier, I still have to use the chair and crawl out of bed. So, now that I have whined about pain long enough time to post this weeks tarot card.

The Magician

First thing I think of with the magician is that he is a worker of magic. In traditional decks, he has all the tools of magic laid out before him. This shows him as a man of wisdom and knowledge, much as a woman who works the craft carries knowledge and wisdom as well.

Being a card with a number one, it also usually signifies beginnings, things that have to begun to manifest. Another thing that most people know about magic is that it does not just happen. magic is not simply about the physical acts of ritual either, it is about the will and focus that we put into those acts. Therefore, I see this as a card that signifies a place of beginnings and opportunities and as well a need to focus our energies to achieve our desires. The possibilities and skills our all laid out on the table before us, it is up to us to take the steps toward bringing our goals to fruition.

Now to look at the Magician from the Fantastical Creatures Deck. The picture shows a winged cat sitting on a table with his front paws on a wand. laid out on the table are two books, a crystal ball, some runes, and some stones. Behind the cat are some shelves with more books, and a few bottles. There is a dreamcatcher on the wall, as well as what looks like herbs hanging from the ceiling. Light filters in through a single window. The cat also has a collar with a bell.

Once again, we see many symbols of the craft, tools of divination, and of learning. One of the things I see when I look at this is that it seems highly focused on the intellect. There are books all around, the divination tools, the wings on the cat and even the bell. All of these show the intellect which may give a warning of a reverse meaning of the card being to be aware of being too much into the intellectual that you miss out on being in touch with your emotions.

So, overall, I see all of the tools and knowledge is there an available for the person to succeed if they are willing to put forth the effort of will to do so. The thing to be wary of is to not lose oneself in the strictly intellectual and forget the emotional and spiritual components along the way as well.

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Thursday, September 18, 2008

"Back" into Writing

Yes, I keep saying I have to get back into writing regularly, and I have been doing a poor job of it. I really, really hate September. I generally have a lot of depression in September and it slows me down a lot from doing many things. Writing just happens to be on of the things that I am not doing. I have been spending a lot of time sleeping. I also started playing a different computer game and that has my mind off on other things. My sleep has been all messed up due a few different things, the depression being the main one.

The other thing that has been effecting me a great deal is my back. I decided that I wanted to carry the air conditioner from the old apartment down to the basement for storage over the winter. It was part of the things I still needed to do around the apartment since moving in. Well, when I lifted up from the floor, I felt something do this sort of slide and pop in my back. It did not immediately hurt, but as I made my way across the floor and then down the steps to the basement, it got worse and worse.

I managed to get the air conditioner properly placed on the its' shelf, and then tried to sit down and the pain really started. I made an appointment that evening with my doctors' office and had one of my friends come over to pick me up and take me there. It seems I have managed to get a sacroiliac joint injury. This is basically, the place where the hip connects to the spine and has very minimal motion. I caused it to move more then it really should move and have been paying for it since then.

Between depression and pain and pain meds, I have spent a lot of time asleep and a lot of time just trying to distract myself from the fact that I am in a great deal of pain. It is definitely better then it was on Friday, but it is still hurting a great deal. So, that is my excuse for not writing recently. September Sucks.

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